Eros and the Auric Body

Hello and welcome to part four, the final installment in the Embodied Recovery series, Eros and the Auric Body.

In this blog you will learn about eros and energetics, and come away with an understanding of how they relate to your recovery and beyond, in order for you to lead a sensually fulfilling and creative life.

Oftentimes, when we think of sobriety, we think of it as the cessation of something. Of cutting something out of our lives, hopefully permanently. And this is an EXCELLENT DECISION, congratulations.

With it comes a lot of feelings to sort through. Sobriety can kinda feel like a rollercoaster of feelings, thoughts and phases. I feel like we all go through the "it's not fair" phase of it all. We may be angry with the fact that we can't drink (for example) like a "normal" person. We may think that we'll lose touch with our creativity if we can't get high before we write or paint. Wild sex...while sober? Unheard of. We may assume the rest of our lives will be devoid of pleasure.

But what if there was a different way to go about it?

Rather than getting sober and abstaining from our drug of choice and white knuckling it for the rest of our lives, while attending meetings or whatever, what if we opened ourserlves to the possibility of experiencing recovery through a different lens? One that incorporated beauty and devotion? One that infused embodiment and even eros into the mix? Without byassing the work, but rather seeing it through a whole new lens?

Welcome to Embodied Recovery.

So, you got sober. Congratulations. All is not lost. In truth, this is the very beginning of embodying who you've meant to be all along. There will be messes to clean up, amends to be made, but the rest of your life does not have to be about punishing yourself for your past, but rather, consciously becoming She who is ready to be unveiled.

The question begs to be asked, do you want (and choose) to remain in recovery as a means of eternally fixing yourself or go beyond that self imprisonment to something yet to be tapped into?

This is where the embodied part of Embodied Recovery comes in. It’s deep within our bones and weaved into many, many aspects of our lives. You know how some people make their entire identity around being an addict/sober? We are not doing that around here. We are also not brushing it under the rug either.

Rather, we are doing a third thing — honoring where we’ve been, while staying devoted to who we are and who we are Becoming, and infusing life with beauty and allowing for our eros to flow as we honor the altar that is our body, our heart and light within.

The final pillar of Embodied Recovery brings us to eros and the auric body. Eros, the omnipresent energy that flows through all of life and the auric body, the vessel for which it flows. The auric body is a culmination of the three prior ones - mental, emotional and physical. They all affect each other, and you can think of it sort of like an onion in that they’re layers. We began this journey at the mind because if there is no opening at the mind for light to come in, and with it, new ways of thinking and perceiving the world and its beauty, then transformation will remain illusive.

By the time we’ve gone through the process of shedding mental habits and beliefs, and learning to ride our ways of emotions and befriending our physical vessels and finding safety within them, our channels have become clear in the process.

No longer clogged, our energy can now flow freely.

Where once we didn’t feel safe to open up, or felt blocked,we are better able to tune into our creativity and pleasure, the eros that is innate within us as our channels open in receptivity to our new frequency. Prior, we may have felt disconnected or even fearful about opening up to things that we previously felt we could only connect to when drunk, high or whatever.

Personally speaking, due to experiences I had as a young adult, as a teen and well into adulthood, I found it terrifying to be intimate with another person whether it was having a conversation, in the bedroom or otherwise. I was very fearful of confrontation of any sort, unless I was drunk or high. l also experienced the sensations (or lack of) of my whimsy/zest for life/essence, being totally snuffed out. I didn't feel safe. I was disconnected from my body, my mind, my creativity. I was a living shell of myself that was using something outside of me, to tap into something INHERENT WITHIN. Go figure. Maybe you can relate.

My eros had been hidden under shame and fear but eventually, the curious desire to experience more of myself, my creativity + sexuality, and life in general was greater than the perceived safety of hiding.

Note* if you are having a problem that feels bigger than you can self-navigate, please seek out the help of a therapist for trauma work and deep rooted issues.

Anyways.

After getting sober, we may even feel guilty for wanting to experience pleasure. Are we even worthy of it after everything that happened during addiction? Haven't we had enough, I would hear my shadows asking, at the mere contemplation of experiencing fun, adventure and intimacy?

As women in recovery, are we meant to live a beige life of restriction and disconnection from desire?

FUCK THAT!

The good news?

Life in Embodied Recovery gets to be full of pleasure and creation. Rather than shaming yourself for the rest of your life about things of the past, you are able to decidedly tap into the inner light that pulsates through both blood, nadis AND YONI.

It’s always been there, it’s simply been buried beneath of lot energetic…stuff. As you move through the pillars, you subsequently free yourself from energetic entanglements that have previously kept you stuck in an outdated identity.

As the grip is released in the mind, and we embody new ways to release the overwhelm of heavy emotions, and go on this beautiful journey back home to our body and sacred Self. We liberate ourselves down to the very essence that flows through our nadis (energetic channels).

So how do we work with eros and the auric body? Here are some ways to reconnect to your sensuality/sexuality and energy:

1. Energy practices such as clearing, organization and boundaries

   Check out my mini Pranic Healing BW Meditation here

2. Breathwork to move energy and expand the capacity of your nervous system

   Check out my Nervous System Expansion Meditation here

3. Connect to your creativity - write, paint, play! Be open to the cues of your soul that desire to create and then do it.

4. Move your body in an embodied way - turn off the mind and get into the body. Movement is an excellent way to allow energy to flow. It’s been scientifically proven that emotions are stored in the fascia so movement, foam rolling, massage too, will help for the free flow of energy. Allow for it to be sensual. Put on music and move like no one is watching. Pop your headphones on, close your eyes and allow your body to lead you.

   Check out my audio only embodied, feminine yoga flow here

5. Meditation, I’ll ALWAYS advocate for it. Any kind, anywhere.

6. Identity what brings you pleasure - get your senses involved with this. Think fabrics, music, foods and non-alcoholic drinks, touch, scents.

7. Mirrorwork + movement…this is a highly intimate practice. Either sit in front of your mirror or stand. Where whatever you like. Whatever feels comfortable or even edgy. Be naked, do your thing! It’s your choice. Whatever you choose, be gentle with yourself. Set the intention to not judge but rather use the time to infuse yourself with love. IF judgemental thoughts arise, acknowledge them and let them go. There is usually a deeper meaning beyond the initial thoughts or words that come up. Be open to what that is, and meet it with love.

8. Somatic activation - awaken yourself in a deeply embodied way through both Body Wisdom classes and/or Soma sessions where you will learn to release stagnant energy and tap into and integrate new timelines into your body and field.

   Check out my Higher Self Somatic Activation here

9. Self pleasure practices - what feels good? What comes up when you allow yourself to feel pleasure? Does it feel invoke a specific emotion - guilt, shame, fear, relief, etc? Can you stand to witness it, and allow it to melt as you continue your practice? When we are fully present with sensations and feelings, we effectively shine a light on them, and accept them. When they are seen, they have a new opporutnity, rather than hiding in the shadows causing unconscious fuckery.

As of the publish date, I have two upcoming events:

• DEVOTION: a free, 3 day event to release outdated idenitities of 2025 and the past, and somatically ativate a new iteration of your most sacred Self for the upcoming 1 year. We begin on 12.31.25 in my private FB group, Awaken to Your Sovereignty. Request to join here

• BODY WISDOM: a 90 minute somatic movement workshop on January 4th, 2025 at 11am NY. You can sign up here.

I have openings for private mentorship via Soma sessions and BLOOM. Read more about them here

Sending you love,

Amy